Monday, September 12, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
You say goodbye and I say Ni hao.
This just in... I'm moving to China!
Xi'an China.
To say that I am going insane with anxiety would be a serious understatement.
I am going to be living at a foster home with some adorable Chinese babies ( 3 and under)
its called Starfish. I'm pretty pumped to spend some time volunteering with this incredible organization. That being said... I can't remember a time in my life where i have been this scared about ANYTHING. do i speak Chinese? Not a lick. Do i know someone who lives within five thousand miles? Nope. I don't know how i have convinced myself to go! I guess after innumerable breakdowns on my bedroom floor,countless phone calls to the girls and panic driven prayers in the middle of the night I feel like there is something there for me. I am convinced its what i am supposed to do. Why? i don't know. I have faith that the Lord will provide and everything will work out the way its supposed to. I leave on the 15th of September! I'll be back in December. As i write this i don't feel like Its me I'm writing about! I think "who is this caarraazzyyyy girl? shes out of her mind!!!!!" The nervousness gives me nausea. I have heard it said that most people feel excited & nervous the same way... so for right now and the next 6 days i will tell myself that my brain is just confused and I'm excited and I'm not nervous. Here is to hoping I don't throw up! :) Classy!
Xi'an China.
To say that I am going insane with anxiety would be a serious understatement.
I am going to be living at a foster home with some adorable Chinese babies ( 3 and under)
its called Starfish. I'm pretty pumped to spend some time volunteering with this incredible organization. That being said... I can't remember a time in my life where i have been this scared about ANYTHING. do i speak Chinese? Not a lick. Do i know someone who lives within five thousand miles? Nope. I don't know how i have convinced myself to go! I guess after innumerable breakdowns on my bedroom floor,countless phone calls to the girls and panic driven prayers in the middle of the night I feel like there is something there for me. I am convinced its what i am supposed to do. Why? i don't know. I have faith that the Lord will provide and everything will work out the way its supposed to. I leave on the 15th of September! I'll be back in December. As i write this i don't feel like Its me I'm writing about! I think "who is this caarraazzyyyy girl? shes out of her mind!!!!!" The nervousness gives me nausea. I have heard it said that most people feel excited & nervous the same way... so for right now and the next 6 days i will tell myself that my brain is just confused and I'm excited and I'm not nervous. Here is to hoping I don't throw up! :) Classy!
Friday, September 2, 2011
My Summer Soundtrack included...
So, Im painfully aware that August is over, meaning summer has again managed to fly by. No worries...
It was an unimaginable delight in everyway. What is summer with out the Summer Soundtrack...right?
here are just a few of my favs that
SCREAM SUMMER!!!!!
SCREAM SUMMER!!!!!
Sondre = So Handsome.Marry Me?
chill summer night drive.... holocene. I still get goosebumps. i want to kiss this song 100x....
EVVEEERRYYDAY I WAS SHUFF-SHUFF-A LIN!!!!
OTHERS-
fader- the temper trap
waste- foster the people
love rhino- sunny levine
girlfriend- discovery
thanks summer. love you.
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