Xi'an China.
To say that I am going insane with anxiety would be a serious understatement.
I am going to be living at a foster home with some adorable Chinese babies ( 3 and under)
its called Starfish. I'm pretty pumped to spend some time volunteering with this incredible organization. That being said... I can't remember a time in my life where i have been this scared about ANYTHING. do i speak Chinese? Not a lick. Do i know someone who lives within five thousand miles? Nope. I don't know how i have convinced myself to go! I guess after innumerable breakdowns on my bedroom floor,countless phone calls to the girls and panic driven prayers in the middle of the night I feel like there is something there for me. I am convinced its what i am supposed to do. Why? i don't know. I have faith that the Lord will provide and everything will work out the way its supposed to. I leave on the 15th of September! I'll be back in December. As i write this i don't feel like Its me I'm writing about! I think "who is this caarraazzyyyy girl? shes out of her mind!!!!!" The nervousness gives me nausea. I have heard it said that most people feel excited & nervous the same way... so for right now and the next 6 days i will tell myself that my brain is just confused and I'm excited and I'm not nervous. Here is to hoping I don't throw up! :) Classy!
Oh my gosh. I am obsessed with you. You are going to thrive, THRIVE, THRRRIIIIVEEE in China. You've changed my life & you are going to bless the Asians simply with the way you glow. I love you Aub Till. I miss you so much already. If you come home sooner than later I will kiss you on the lips. XOXOXOXO
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